I just told you that I love you with every single aching part of my used up body and you said that it wasn't enough. You said that I wasn't enough. I can't be everything, but I've tried so fucking hard for you. I gave you everything I have and more and you just threw it all back in my face. I never wanted anything more and I never thought I would need something so much. I have spent years trying to be what you want and it was never, ever good enough. You have made me feel worthless and I want you to know that. You have torn me apart and killed me from the inside out. So this is for you, the murderer that you are.

I am lying, pretending to be okay with just 'something' when I semi-secretly want everything. Instead I think I'll give you nothing.

This is my apology in advance.